If there is one thing I have learnt from university, is that we are all unique individuals, with our own unique talents and skills.
And yes, while some people may be better at some things than others are, we shouldn’t beat ourselves up about what we can’t do – but recognise that we have our own talents and others have their own talents! We should take what we CAN do and use it to the best of our abilities… letting our ‘lights shine’ in this dark world.
Bringing in a Bible verse here- Matthew 5:13-16says;
13 “You are the salt of the earth. But if the salt loses its saltiness, how can it be made salty again? It is no longer good for anything, except to be thrown out and trampled underfoot.
14 “You are the light of the world. A town built on a hill cannot be hidden.15 Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house.16 In the same way, let your light shine before others, that they may see your good deeds and glorify your Father in heaven.
from the get go, we are born with our own individual talents and skills- your ‘light’.
Don’t hide your light, and don’t let other people’s light make you dim your light. Be happy that other people can too shine their lights! And shine your light as bright as you can!
In terms of letting my light shine, before I got to uni, i was a shy, unconfident, quiet person, i always knew i had it in me to be confident and bubbly, but I think the way the school ‘clique system’ was set up, and the way i viewed myself got in the way of me allowing myself to be myself, even in front of some of my closest friends. The loud, excitable person i was when i was alone or around my closest of friends was much different to the reserved girl i was in the school environment.
Coming to uni changed that for some reason. I think it is because you are really thrown in there at the deep end, in that you move out of home and in to halls with complete strangers- where if you don’t open up and put yourself out there, you will struggle to meet people.
My flatmates and I are exceptionally close and i love them all dearly, and I’m so grateful for them, because without realising they have really helped me to develop and build on my confidence levels, i feel i can really be myself around them and do all sorts of weird ass shit. – Not to mention the friends from home who i am comfortable around !
But in the different environment of university, i was able to flourish a bit more than in the small world that was my secondary school – a world in which i counted down the days till my last day like no other. I also think at uni, you are surrounded by people who don’t care what they look like, and don’t give a toss about what you look like!
In school you wouldn’t have caught me dead without *AT LEAST some eye make up on my eyes, my hair looking nice, my skin clear and my clothes looking nice, because i felt so much emphasis was placed on looks, especially from earlier experiences of being bashed for the way i looked. (I’m mainly referring to the sixth form stages where we had no uniform) But here at uni, they don’t care – and neither do i! I will happily roll straight out of bed to my 9AM… and going as i woke up – looking like a crusty, tired, possibly hungover mess.
Uni is the place where, after years of wanting to start a blog, i actually felt comfortable and unjudged enough to start one! It’s a place that doesn’t feel like it has a hierarchy in terms of friendship groups, a place where i feel more myself, more at home, more Maya.